Kasi

I feel like most of my updates revolve around my to-do lists and my writing projects, haha! I keep forgetting about Dreamwidth since I got addicted to Twitter, because my computer needs to go to the Computer Doctor TM and I still have an extremely precarious internet connection (it’s more like internet mobile than wifi.) University started again, I like most of my classes so far and I think my students are more interested in the classes I teach this semester so MAYBE this part of the year could be less painful. I’m looking forward to it even if my depression and overall health are being kinda annoying but I don’t want to focus on that.

I WANT TO TALK ABOUT PROJECTS:

• I finished SA3 and even if I ended up HATING my fic, I’m still happy about having finished it. There was a moment when I considered just not doing it because it was driving my anxiety up the wall.
• I’m writing a multichaptered r76 fic with a friend and I’M DYING WITH EXCITEMENT ABOUT IT.
• I wrote a tiny fic for the kink meme. First fill ever, yay!
• I hit a wall with my s/t BB again so there’s some stuff I have to figure out about it before I go back to working on it.
• DEFINITELY JOINING R76 RBB.
• There a lot of other smaller fics I'm working on atm but I think I'll leave the final list for another post.

• I came up with a plot and some ideas for the S/T anthology and I'm just... really happy that it didn't take longer? I thought I would have to struggle with it for a good while and then worry a lot about taking TOO LONG to figure something out but in the end I came up with something and I'm going to start outlining what little I have this weekned. And yes, it'll probably end up being Ultimates because I really want to try my hand at it! (And it'll include multiuniverse shenanigans.)
• That Doomed And Terrible Transistor R76 AU is almost finished. Almost. I wrote most of it in paper and I have terrible handwriting no matter what hand I use so. Understanding my own scribbles it's going to be FUN.
• I had to stop working on the Christmas S/T fic so I can focus on stuff for events. I need to come up with a writing calendar. BB and the fic for the anthology are the most important projects, but there's more time to work on them. So! Focusing on TRB and R76 Summer Event first.
• MY POOR BINGO CARD ):!!!!!!!!!

• I got roped into walking around the city with some professors from a Brazilian university and I'm getting a hard time believing I'm the only person at my faculty that speaks portuguese, but I guess I'm stuck as a temporary tour guide for tomorrow.
• I passed (approved? MMM, I'm sleepy) Economy! For a moment, I was scared I wasn't going to make it but I ended up with really good grades at the end. I'm still surprised (and no, I still don't get Economy.)
• ... And I'm coming down from a high. I spent almost a month under a lot of pressure and then I had a few days of being happy to the point of euphoria and now there's just one exam left for me and I graded all of my students' papers and tests and my brain is going back to that point where I feel a little like I'm floating in cold water, but I hope that keeping myself busy with fandom projects and social interaction will help me prevent another mean episode. I get paranoid when I feel like my brain is getting heavily into HARD DEPRESSION mode because last year was awful and I don't want to feel like that ever again (even if I know that's not going to happen). BUT my meds are working(ish) and I'm trying to not let my brain wander too much and I'll just keep on being optimistic. Can you keep a depressive episode away on sheer stubborness? WE JUST DON'T KNOW.